Tuesday, June 17, 2008 11:53 AM
on and off....
pain came knocking onto the door of my heart
when i ignored, it forced it way through
hence, i allow it to stay.
despite knowing the fact that it is torturing me
it elbowed it way through into my heart once again in the morning.
i believe it has been living. just that now, it got worst.
damn. when will i be able to recover?
i lost the letter of referral
and i doubt they can diagnoise anything either.

breathe being taken away.
i don't want a comfortable life
i need a torturous life
i need a busy life
i'm just a weirdo who want to torture myself.

i need music
i need electric guitar
i need piano
i need drumset

to allow music to drown me in
such that my heart no longer feel for things around
but only for music.